Trying To Love Again.

When she’s trying to love again but still hurting, she’ll pull you in close and push you away out of fear.

When she’s trying to love again but still hurting, you’ll notice how fragile she is. Both in how she speaks and how she acts.

When she’s trying to love again but still hurting, she’ll take things really slow. She’ll look at you questioning everything.

When she’s trying to love again but still hurting, there are things she won’t tell you in full detail. Not because she’s lying but because there are things she’s still processing. 

When she’s trying to love again but still hurting, she might drop his name enough that you notice but you have to just listen until she’s ready to talk more.

When she’s trying to love again she’s going to test you to see if she can trust you. Because after getting her heartbroken, she doesn’t trust herself much.

When she’s trying to love again she’ll listen more than she speaks because she wants to know you but also fears it.

When she’s trying to love again but still hurting, you’ll notice how cautious she is with everything. 

When she’s trying to love again you might see her break down as she tells you about her past. And she’ll feel a sense of guilt letting you see her that vulnerable. But you’ll see her as even more beautiful.

When she’s trying to love again but still hurting, she won’t see herself the way you do. Because in her mind, she still doesn’t think she was good enough for someone. And that’s why it didn’t work.

When she’s trying to love again but still hurting, you’ll wonder how anyone could hurt her or make her question her self-worth.

When she’s trying to love again and you learn exactly why it’s so hard, you’ll realize exactly how strong she really is.

But she’s still trying.

The girl who is brave enough to love again when her heart is still hurting is someone who changes the hearts of everyone she crosses paths with and touches. 

When she’s trying to love again but still hurting, what she’ll learn is the right love heals you when every love, before that caused this pain she couldn’t explain but somehow appreciates.

Because had it not been for every wrong road she walked on, she wouldn’t have found the right path and the strength to get there and find you.

Love the girl who is hurting and teach her you won’t make the same mistakes. 


Why You Keep Getting Hurt.

1. You go for people who are emotionally unavailable.

You know it’ll never work out, but you go for it anyway. You invest time and emotions and energy into someone who can’t emotionally reciprocate it. It’s going for something you know you’ll never get but you like the chase.

2. Or just the same type.

Insanity is doing the same thing but expecting different results. You keep going for that player who has you dialed. You have a type. Sadly this type continues to hurt you but that’s kind of a weird quality you are seeking. He’s an asshole but you seem to like assholes.

3. You keep going back to the same person.

You’re constantly running back to the same person who has already hurt you or each of you guys are running in circles trying to make this something that it isn’t. You can’t force relationships and no matter how many times you find your way back to each other, it isn’t fate as much as it is stupidity.

4. You are only reading the signs you want to.

You are looking for any reason to stick with this person and keep them around. You are disregarding every red flag they throw at you because you only see what you want to see.

5. You aren’t listening to your friend’s advice.

Your friend hates this person or the type you go for. And every time you go to them for advice when you have a problem and you don’t take it, it’s a slap in the face to them. You’re hurting yourself by not following what they say.

6. You aren’t listening to anyone at all.

You do whatever the heck you want then come back crying wondering why the same thing you do every time has left you in a puddle of your own tears. And your friends want to support you but you make it hard.

And sometimes even the person you’re interested in will spell it out for you, but that’s not what you want to hear so you don’t listen.

7. You don’t love yourself enough to not tolerate this shit.

You keep trying to love people into teaching you to love yourself. That’s not how it works.

8. You secretly like something you can predict.

You like controlling things and when it involves someone else, you lose that control a bit. So if you continue with the same patterns even if these things and people are toxic, at least you’ll know how it’ll play out.

You might hate heartbreak. But you don’t hate it enough to change your ways.

9. You fear falling in love.

At the end of the day, you’re afraid to be happy so you cling to hookups and fake relationships because if you didn’t and you got it right, suddenly you’d have something to lose. Suddenly you’d have someone to actually be sad about if you ever lost them. But you don’t let the right people close enough to heal the pain so instead, you cling to all the wrong people giving parts of yourself away wondering why you aren’t whole.