The people who deserve our love most are the ones we overlook.
In a lifetime, you see so many people come and go but when you’re lucky, you have a few that stay. The ones who have been there and you don’t even remember where they came from or when it happened, all you know is they play a major role in your life now.
Maybe it comes in the form of friendships and family. Or maybe it’s a love that’s always stayed put.
And maybe there’s never been a right time for the two of you, so you keep your feelings tucked away not pursuing it. Maybe it’s a love you know is there but something about dating today teaches us, love isn’t supposed to be that simple.
Maybe it’s a friend, an ex or an acquaintance. But they are someone who has been there and stood by you when it seemed everything else in your life wasn’t going according to any plan. The one constant thing you can look back on other than confusion, was their constant love and attention.
She’s always loved you.
If you asked her straight up, she’d agree. But there’s something about her loyalty and playing the role you needed her to that kept her at a stand still, making moves only when you were ready to.
Maybe she never intended to fall in love with you, maybe it just happened as most love does.
Maybe she tried dating others, but there was something about them and something more about you, that they couldn’t even compete with. Because there is something about your presence that makes her light up in ways she never knew she could.
Love that has overcome time and deterrents or frequent changes might change its form, but the love is consistent and is always there.
Without even meaning to, you each took a piece of each other’s heart. Regardless of where you went, you carried one another with you.
She gets it.
You don’t even have to explain things to her and she somehow understands. She can look at you and see what type of day you are having. She can listen to you speak and even when you say fine, she can tell by the tone you aren’t. She understands you in ways you’re still learning to understand yourself, and yeah, that’s a little bit scary sometimes.
And while she sees you in the best light and is constantly trying to build you up, she sees your flaws too. She knows you aren’t perfect, but she also wouldn’t change anything about you. She’s known you long enough to know about every scar you try to hide. She knows about the past you tried to run from, the dreams you have in your future, and she’s been your number one fan for as long as you’ve known her.
And just as she understands you, you can totally read her too. There’s a comfort in knowing there’s someone who knows you to the core of who you are and accepts it.
She’s been patient with you.
She’s lived her life and lived her dreams, but you’ve been right there with her the whole time. And while everything she’s done for herself, she’s thought about you too.
And you’ve tested her while trying to figure things out yourself. And I know the thought has crossed your mind, can you fit her into your life?
But you’ve never made a move and she has a quiet patience, unlike anyone you’ve ever known.
There are times though where you’ve tested her. Times where you’ve kept her up at night wondering, waiting, hoping, crying, thinking of you all the time. But it was never a question of should she walk away, you’ve always been the only choice and the only thing that’s ever made sense to her.
Maybe she dated other people, maybe you did too. You sure as hell slept with other people too.
But no matter who she was with, it’s always been you she’s loved and cared for more.
And she’s waited with patience and a blind confidence that maybe you two would get it right one day.
And maybe you try to deny yourself these feelings, but I know you feel something when it comes to her too.
Sometimes it’s easier to look past someone who has always been there, and pine after what we don’t think we have, than realize and see that thing we’ve been looking for has been there the whole time.